Why the title?

Once upon a time I was working with a lovely man called Jon (a teacher I was his teaching assistant). In November 1999 Jon was turning 50 and for him it was a really big deal, so I thought I'd cheer him up. Over the weeks I started leaving little gifts and funny poems for him, all signed from The Good Cheer Pixie. To this day I still don't know if he knew it was me.

Fast forward a few years to 2003. My husband had decided he never wanted to live with me, a fact that he told me on Christmas Day 2000. After a couple of years trying to change his mind and the sudden death of my mother-in-law in December 2002 I decided that for my 40th birthday I was going to start living my own life. At the time I was with AOL and they had a friend finder service. I signed up to it and started looking for people (and I mean men and women) who wanted to make new friends. Someone to go out for the evening with to have a laugh with. Later on AOL joined forces with Match and later dropped the service altogether, which is a shame for those people just looking for someone to socialise with. Any way, when I signed up for the AOL thing I had to have a user name for my profile, and so I chose Goodcheerpixie.

It was as Goodcheerpixie that I made contact with several people one of whom was my beloved. Funnily enough I didn't even know what he looked like as his profile pic had him dressed as a Blues Brother, admittedly his user name was Talldarkhandsome, but you can't always believe these things. Turned out he never lied.

 Now my beloved is gone and the Goodcheerpixie is gone too. This blog will be a space to express my grief and may be, just may be document me re-finding her.