December 10th

By yesterday afternoon all I wanted to do was have a temper tantrum. A proper terrible twos stamp, scream, cry and lie on the floor with limbs flailing tantrum. I posted this on FB and I was surprised by how many people said "Do It" even if they added a lol. I posted my surprise that anyone would approve and a friend from school who has had enough grief of her own replied thus: 

Think about why toddlers scream and stamp. They feel sad and frustrated, not understanding what’s happening to them. I reckon they just have tantrums because they’re people, not because they’re children. They haven’t yet learned to pretend they’re ok. So as adults, when we’re grieving, don’t we deserve an outlet?

It sums things up precisely, I am sad and frustrated and I don't know what is happening. So I might not have screamed (I do have neighbours) but I did lie on the floor and bang my fists and kick and cry, and today I feel a little better.

Billy's idea of a ball pit.